Love is a feeling of great fondness or enthusiasm for a person or thing. This also means that you have a great passion or interest for that person or thing. LOVE is a big and strong word. If you misuse it, you could hurt yourself, or even someone else. Love is sensitive, and love helps you express your feelings better. You can love many things. Your family, your friends, your religion, recreational activities, or a special someone. This someone special could be a close friend, an important person, or that one person that you want to be with for the rest of your life. When you tell someone you love them, you are making a promise to that person that you want to always be there for them, and that you care about them that much. When you tell someone you love them, you are also indirectly telling them that you can't let them go. Loving someone means that they are important to you. As such, if you tell someone you love them, and you end up not being there for them, it would in turn hurt that person. Because with love comes trust. As you told that someone you loved them, they put that trust that you would always be there when in need. Not being there would cause this person to lose this trust, which would in turn get them hurt. How do you know when you love something? Simple. You should know when you first start feeling comfortable around them. This would then lead you to enjoying their presence, and being happy when they are around. As this love begins to grow stronger, you would begin to grow more attached to this someone. This means that you would begin to become more and more affected to how this person is feeling. Which also means being more sensitive towards that person. For instance, if this person is feeling sad about something, you would begin to feel upset as well. You would start to grow more fond into making them happy, and might even go to any extent to do so. When you love someone, you are also assuring them that you care not about how they look like. Be it pretty or ugly, fat or thin, Or any other physical property for that matter. What you are really telling them is that you care about their personality more than anything else. With love also comes understanding. If you love someone, you would be more understanding to the things that they do. If it is something wrong, you would help that person to make it right, instead of making matters worse. And if it is something right, you would support that person. Arguing with someone you love is very normal. This is because you care for the person so much, that when something happens or is done, you would be concerned and speak of how you feel. This sometimes creates a conflict of thinking. Thus, arguing with someone you love would in turn bring you to learn more about that person. As such, love is a never-ending journey. Love is to understand, to have faith, hope, and trust, in that person. In conclusion, never misuse love. This would bring someone, or even yourself to get hurt. Love is a strong word, and love can make someone happy or sad. So always be sure to be sensitive, patient, and kind. Because that my friends, is love. So to all those who think you are in love, think again. This is an original writing by me, Christopher Paul. =)

11/08/2009 03:46:00 AM;

Hi, I know nobody probably visits this anymore, but nevermind.

Life can get difficult! Just like my exam topic today, Choices. Choices, life is full of them. Choices can be hard to make, they could be good or bad. There are right and wrong choices. Choices have their outcomes, negative or positive. Making the right choice is not always easy. Making the wrong choice leaves you lost and hurt. Sometimes, to make things better, the wrong choice, could be the right one. Every choice helps you to experience something new.

Sometimes, I don't know what to do, what choice to make, how to carry on. Sometimes I don't know how to express myself. Sometimes I'm afraid of saying something, in case it might hurt someone, or affect something. But it all still comes down to the choice. The choice of what to do. Once you've chosen that choice, you can't turn back. You have to support that choice, and treat it like it means your life. I hope I've made the right choices, to make things better.

And, don't you think that sometimes, saying sorry is not what you want from someone when they do something wrong? Don't you ever fell that you want them to change, and not let it happen again, instead of saying sorry all the time, for the same thing they always do, or even for something they've never did at all? Don't you feel that sometimes its hard to trust? But you trust because of how much you love and believe in that person? You trust because of all the other bigger things they have done, to prove to you they deserve it? Although its the smallest of things, that hurt and affect you the most?

Life can be complicated, nobody can go on on their own. Thats why I have her, to accompany me throughout everything, and to always be there for me. To pick me up when I fall, and carry me when I can't walk. To wipe away my tears, and put a smile on my face. To keep me warm when I'm cold, and to never forget, of how much I love and Trust in her. All I ask, is for her not to forget, or betray that.

4/24/2009 12:26:00 AM;

Hello World! I'm finally back in action! But maybe its just for today. We'll see!
I'm actually here to tell all of you, who read my blog, that anyone can make it!

Just look at me. First hand example. From Sec1 express, where I was exceeding my expectations academically, to Sec2 express where I started failing almost everything. Dropping to Sec3 Normal did not change me at all. And my grandfather passing away was of no assistance to how ignorant I'd become towards my studies. Being retained in Sec3 Normal had not much of an effect on me. Infact, I practically became worse and couldn't care less about my studies. I began to skip school, sleep in class, and it became a normal routine to be seated at the school foyer whenever I decided to make an appearance in school. Moreover, the form teacher, and subject teachers that I had did not help in improving my results or discipline in school. Retaining again in Sec3 might have just given me a wake up call. I finally had a supportive form teacher, and comments from people like "Stayback" or "Old Man" made me want so badly to prove all of them wrong. I began to improve in my studies and my attitude towards doing my work. I managed to get 2nd in class for the Mid-Year Exams, but my results began to drop again after the June holidays. I dropped to 6th in class, but still managed to squeeze myself through to Secondary4, after spending 3 wasteful years in Sec3 Normal. Secondary4 meant an important year ahead. and I had to study hard and keep my head up just so to get through to sec5 the following year. At the beginning of the year, I had grown the same 'I-Don't-Care' attitude towards my studies. But as the Mid-Years ended, and the N Levels were just around the corner, I began to wake up again. I worked hard for my art, and put in more effort to my studies. I needed this, I wasted too much time! My results began to improve again. N Levels came and went. It felt like such a short while ago, but the dreadful day of receiving my results approached. I was afraid, I was scared. I may just have not done as well as I expected myself to do. I looked at my result slip, and was filled with joy, speechless and close to tears. Seriously. A total of 6 points got me through to sec5. And for once, I actually passed all my subjects. I've never done that ever since Sec1. Now thats a great acchievement. A1 for english, A2 for math, B3 for art, B3 for Humanities, And B4 for science, made me realise that I could do it if I put the effort in. And I'm sure anybody else can. So keep your heads high and never give up.

Now, I couldn't have done it without the help of my most beloved, and dearest girlfriend, Melissa Stewart, who forced me to study, and even brought me out with her to study, making sure I had put in the effort.

At that time also, although I don't want to mention it, Zain Ghazali who supported me.
I BEAT YOUR FUCKING 13-POINT ASS BITCH!

And all my friends like Rikhil and Nikkie who pushed me and pressurised me to study.
THANK YOU ALL!



6 POINTS BITCHES!!!

12/20/2008 01:56:00 AM;

Hello there! I bet my blog is more or less dead because I haven't been blogging for 10 years! But this is one is for my dearest love, Melissa Stewart!


Baby, I'm glad that you're the one I'm with. You have so much more than whatever I've seen in anyone else that I've ever met! You're always there for me. You're loving, caring, amazing, beautiful, adorable, cute, extraordinary, lovely, faithful, hopeful, and so so so much more, even words can't express. You love, care, have faith, have hope, have happiness, have joy. I really love you with all my heart. And I'd do anything just to make sure that you're happy. These past 4 1/2 months have been the best in my life, just because you're there. I've never had a relationship with so much love, care and concern before, and I'm happy that I'm having it now with you. I never want this to end, and I never want to lose this feeling, where everything is nothing without you! You support me in everything that I do, and you never lose faith in me. I'll always be there for you, just like you've always been there for me. You can make me miss you just with the blink of the eye. You're like my angel sent from up above to take care of and always be there for me. Our love, is a love I've never experienced, and probably a love nobody has ever experience too. I never want to lose this!

You're the sweetest girl ever in my life, and nothing can ever separate us. I love you with all my heart baby!

11/22/2008 04:55:00 AM;

Okay hello, so its been long. I've been really caught up with things and have also been super lazy to blog. So first I shall release my anger. On Friday, met Jen, John, Shabiri, and many other people. Zain was supposed to meet us at 2. So we waited for him at Parkway. When we reached he said he was 10 minutes away, so we went to Macs to wait for him. Lets just say all of us ended up waiting for him at Macs all the way till about 8 or 9+ just to realise that he was not going to come at all. He only answered our calls at around 7 or 8 to tell us he wasn't meeting us, and obvioulsy we all were super fucking pissed. We went to Bedok Court, and met Yin Yee, Jess, Kish, and Tracy, together with myself, John, Jen, and Ian. And we all waited for fuking Zain to come by just to pretend that nothing at all happened. In the end we waited for him for approximately 10 hours. Which is not a good amount of time, and as such, nobody wanted to forgive him. He did not have a proper explanation, neither did he seem to care about anything at all.

Saturday, had tuition in the morning, then met Mel and Sofia at around 330 at Bedok MRT to make our way to City Hall. Waited for Justin for about 45 minutes, and went to KFC cause Sofia and I were hungry. We made our way to the Esplanade. Now, Zain was supposed to provide us with the preview thickets for NDP, but in the end he didn't, and I think that he didn't even have the tickets to begin with. So we went to the bridge and waited there for everything. We saw the awesome planes that I want to fly. Go and watch, the planes this year are freaking awesome! Oh we saw the helicopter too, that I also want to fly. From then on, we waited for the fireworks, which was definitely worth the wait. Although it should have been longer. During the wait, we managed to joke and entertain ourselves, so it actually turned out to be fun. Went to Marina Square after that and walked around, then took train back. Spent some alone time with Mel near her house, and left at around 11+. So that was about 8 or 9 hours spent with her. I'm happy we could spend so much quality time together! So the day ended up to be fun, and I'm glad I managed to entertain those bums! =D

So that is all for now. I've got nothing to blog about sunday because I was sleeping practically the whole day, and I can't possibly tell you whatI was doing while I was sleeping, cause even I don't know.

For my dearest and most cherished one. Darling, I don't ever want to see or hear you talking so negatively. I love and care for you so much, and it really hurt me to hear you talk like that. I couldn't sleep properly worrying about whether you were alright or not. It really hurts me to see you like that, and i hope you begin to think more positively. Remember that I'll always be here with and for you through it all, and I'll never leave your side. Thats my whole point of being here, and I'll make sure that everything is alright. I've got alot of faith in you, and so should you have much faith in yourself. Don't ever give up, cause I'll be supporting you in every good thing that you do. I love you darling, now smile and be happy!

8/04/2008 08:52:00 AM;

Like WHAT THE FUCK man! Whatever happened yesterday shall not be mentioned here. But let me tell you this, its fucked, and I think my is too! Whoever that knows about it, just shut the fuck up. If you spread it, you face the fucking consequences. If I find out that you're spreading it, I'll fuck you so hard, you'll regret even kowing what happened. And to those that don't, don't fucking come and put your nose in. Some advise to all of you, just shut the fuck up. Thank you my darling dearest, Mel, for sticking for me through it all. I'm just afraid that this would affect our relationship, and that would be even more fucked up.

So many fucking problems down my neck, so many burdens to carry. I've still got my stupid smoking case to worry about. But through it all, my dearest one, Mel has been with me, and still is. Even after all the shit I've done, and problems I've caused, she is still here by my side. And I tell you this, this is the kind of love I was looking for all along. I hope it grows stronger. I love you Mel! You know its true!

And a special thanks also to Zain Ghazali! Who has been also talking to me and assuring me that everything will be alright, just like what Mel has been doing! I love you both! But obviously Zain, just as a friend, and Mel, more than a friend. Heh! Thank you both for sticking with me through it all! So thats all, I'll be back again when I'm feeling better, and more calm. For now, its goodbye.

7/18/2008 10:10:00 PM;

HELLO HELLO HELLO! The only reason I'm blogging now is because of how exciting and awesome my life has become! I'll start with Saturday. Got up early to make my way down to school for the stupid Turtle Race thing. Volunteered to help out Mr Thompson, to gain some CIP hours. We ended up waiting until about 9 or 10 something to help him. Carried like 10 pails full of water first, and the woman we helped still make noise all. So ungrateful man! So we slacked after that until DM called us to 'assist' him again. Carrying 27 boxes full of 300 rubber turtles each. Super tiring, super heavy, but fun! It was like some kind of bonding session between the retainees and Altar Servers of OLPS! The turtle race started, waited for all those dumb lifeless turtles to reach the end and began collecting them out of the canal. I had to climb in drains and places you don't want to know to retrieve the lost and stuck turtles. The whole day overall was actually quite fun. Had free lunch and drinks. It was the best school event ever, besides the funfair we had when I was sec2, which was 4 years back. Went for dinner at Parkway with Janice after that, and left for home.

So on Sunday, made my way to church, was late as usual. Attended mass, and slacked slacked slacked. Met Boon all after 1115 mass and went to Parkway. Accompanied Michael Chow and Daryl for awhile, then I left to make my way to Tanah Merah to meet Melsie! We took train to Somerset and went to watch You Don't Mess With The Zohan. The movie had its funny parts, but the storyline was CRAP! Which made the movie boring as hell. Mel was falling asleep. After the movie, I went to eat at KFC, and we went to walk at Heeren. Then we walked to Wisma and Pentagon And Taka. Sent Mel home after and that was it! I had much fun, of course.

Then Monday came. Supposed to meet Mel to study. Sofia came along, and we went to starbucks to get my Chocolate Cream Chip. Sat there for awhile, then left for Macs, where we were supposed to study. Zain came awhile later. Mel managed to do a little bit of her math, and I, 1 page of physics. Went to Banquet cause Zain wanted to have his 'fishball noodles', And I ended up eating as well. Went to borders and read kiddy books. Justin met us there an soon after we left for home. Didn't send Mel home cause I was late for tuition. And that was it for monday! Another great day, indeed!

Now for today, the best day ever! School was like normal, study a little, sleep a little. Met Zain after school, and went to PP to get something. Then made my way back to school to do art. Scott and I wanted to ciao early, but Mdm Nor caught us, so we had to stay a little longer. We then left, and made our way home. Got home and waited for Mel's call, thenmade my way to Siglap Starbucks to meet her, where I bumped into my ex classmates, whom abandoned me when I retained. Bought starbucks again, and took 14 to Tanah Merah. Then went to buy bubble tea, which tasted like shit today. Walked with Mel back to her place, slacked at her block for awhile, and before we left, the best thing happened! I'm so happy now la! I love you babes! Now and forever! =D

7/08/2008 10:45:00 PM;

♥ CHRISSY

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